THOUGTHS to self: "Is the dream THAT far fetched?!?!"

Easily disatracted.
Difficult to keep focus.
Often skewed perception.
Hardly "disabilities"; given the accomplishments of the likes of  "Sandy" MITCHELL!
It is the "involuntary" (?!) comparison to previously-had-capabilities that have me accepting the disability-label.
"THAT was then; THIS is now ... GET ON WITH IT!", that oh, so faint voice in my head says.

"So what is it you want to do? " and "Why not just sit back and enjoy your retirement?".

"Reitrement' is man's invention; I want to "give" as long as I can give!
My husband should be saying, "But you are "giving" me support while I work"!   Instead, he persists in encouraging me to pursue my ambition of certifying myself in
  ANIMAL ASISTED THERAPY / ANIMAL TRAINING & ENRICHMENT- certification!

Working with people - so called normal people - requires too much effort in discerning truth, restraining thoughts concealing disappointments; that is why I veared towards animals.
Animals "speak" plainly and only rarely lie; children are so much like animals!
Behaviours learned from my Life #1 are oh so easily mimicked that I surprise myself!   That is the very cause of my continual  'distraction" - I begin to believe my own act and forget my new capabilities!
Could this pursuit of re-education be another "distraction-from-reality"?

Where am I going to collect the 6,600$ I need to finish certification in Animal Training and Assisted Therapy?  Is it the $$ that serves the disconnect?
There are numerous Foundational Grant, Bursaries or Gifts; I simply must get around to applying for them!
I don't think THAT is causing me to think, "far fetched"; but what am I going to DO after certification?
WINDREACH appears to be the perfect fit; but do I have the strength of body to get myself  there & back?!
It is this darn "battery life" - my muddled/damaged brain!
I have managed to extend my brain's endurance from 3 to 4 and now 5 days of the week; strengthening my ability to give 4 then 5 and now 6 hours per day!  
Now that "6 hours" must include: keeping house, "foraging" for food & preparing it, exercising body, tending to laundry & keeping house
and
all the time, giving praise & honour to God!
What "drove"  my ambitions in Life #1 is, perhaps, going to drive me to exhaustion!
... and then there is this @#$!!!! osteo-arthritis!

Do I run cabin in the wilderness of Vancouver Island - a cabin, of course, with Internet, a restaurant kitchen, dog and kayak  (I guess i'd need a power boat to get groceries etc!)!
Now THAT is a bit far fetched!
OK, when I get back to Earth, I will what 'falls out' before me!